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Thursday, November 1, 2012

What I Wrote in My Highschool Journal and How It's Coming Back to Haunt Me

I'm at the point in my life where I am dealing with a full-fledged teenager!!

The problem is that now I am on the mother-end of this relationship.  And it isn't as just cut and dry as I thought it should be for parents as I did when I was 15.

So I am learning, learning, learning those lessons that only come with experience.

One of those profound lessons was written ever so discreetly in my high school journal which, I happened to pull out this week  . . . and actually dared to look inside as I opened to a completely random page.

On the one side was my personal experience of meeting a prophet of God with real teenage descriptive words such as "cool" and "awesome."

On the other side of the page was high school drama and emotion that made my eyes grow big enough that it squeezed my brain into realizing that, YIKES I was 15 once!!

Gulp!

Back then I really didn't know much of anything!!

And as I quickly shut that journal, I marveled that somehow between being me then and being me now, is that I still I really don't know much of anything!  But the little that I do know is, Father in Heaven is good and kind and patient.

And, if He can be good and kind and patient to a 15 year old girl who was me, He will be good and kind and patience to a 15 year old boy who is mine for now. . .

2 comments:

  1. Pretty scary, isn't it? How much we thought we knew and we were clueless. Like you said, I'm pretty sure I'm still clueless, but the older I get the more I realize how little I know...

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  2. My sister and I have had long talks about parenting. When we were teens we thought our parents made mistakes and didn't know much. Now we are the parents (actually her children are all adults 40-28) and we realize that parents do the very best they can with what they are given. How wonderful that you have a journal that you can whip out to show and say "yes, I do know how teenagers feel! I was one too." Technology may change but human emotions haven't in 6000 years. Keep up the good work.

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