Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Going Back to School

25+ years ago I was a matriculated, university student.

I knew exactly what my major would be.

I knew when I was going to graduate.

I knew what I would do for the rest of my life.

Then, at the beginning of my second year, during the first week of classes, I had this feeling that I was supposed to drop all my classes, check out of school and work full time.


What about my planning?  What about my scholarship?  What about my dream of getting a college degree?

I did my best to ignore the feeling and into the second week of classes my brain could not and would not comprehend a.n.y.t.h.i.n.g.  As soon as I entered a classroom, I felt as if I were entering a black hole.

Dark. Foggy. Hollow.

I couldn’t fight it any longer.  I dropped all my classes, checked out of school and moved forward with life.

Last August, my husband came home from Church and told me about a program sponsored by BYU-Idaho that would enable me to attain a college degree.

As he spoke and explained what he had learned that day, a feeling came over me that was just as distinctive and palpable as the feeling I had received 25+ years ago to end my schooling.  However, that feeling filled me with light and clarity and depth.  I was filled with the impression that I was ready to pursue my goal to receive a college degree.

I am starting my second semester with the BYU-Idaho Pathway Program.  It has been the most amazing learning experience I have ever encountered!!

Some days I wonder why I am going to school now when it is the craziest, busiest time of my life.  Five teenagers! Three elementary-aged children! and a two year old!!  And that doesn't even begin to skim the surface . . .

But just how I listened to a still, small voice 25+ years ago to stop going to school, I am listening and following that ever encouraging voice that tells me that right now is the right time to go back to school.


  1. Congrats! I started Pathway too. It is such an answer to prayers for me. This is going to be an exciting adventure.

    1. And CONGRATS to you! Is this your first semester? It has been such an incredible experience for me so far. I'd love to hear about how it's going for you! Definitely an answer to prayers!

    2. Yes, this is my first term. It is going well, I'm finally getting into a routine to get the work done. I read your post on math and feel a bit of anxiety. What level of math is it? I've heard we don't have discussion boards, does that save time? Would love to hear more about it. And yes, this was an answer to prayers.

  2. that is fantastic!!! You will do great :).

  3. YAY! you will absolutely love it!! I did the Pathway program last year, it was such a blessing to me and our family. I have continued on taking online classes and LOVE it!
    I felt the same way about math, you will do great. Love love love the tender mercies that brought about the blessings of this program.